Yuck, I'm so upset right now. I'm really not sure what to think about myself... my "short fuze" keeps being put into question, which over the past 4 months has been the most annoying catch 22 ever... the more it's being put up for debate, the angrier I get! Also, I feel most times the subject is never approached in a civil manner, it's always a really subtle passive aggression, or some backhanded comment. There is something I understand very well about myself, I read into pretty much everything a person says... I'm fucking sensitive (god that sounds so fucking gay, and its the one flaw I've always denied), and I'm honest. Soooo, this dude (I) decided that I'm entitled to my anger :-) I'm allowed to be offended, let a person know when they've crossed MY line, and question people's bad behaviors, especially at work!! Ah, feel so much better!!!!!
Today my parents arrived in Florida!!! They drove 10 hours from North Carolina, checked into their little bungalow mansion, and then came and ate with me at Cody's. I was so excited, I couldn't stop talking about it, and everyone at work really shared my excitement. Also everyone was super sweet to the rents, and I think I finally got them to like Cody's :-)
Now it's all about making it up at 9, and meet up with mom and dad. Then at 2 Judith and Sabine will be here!!!! fuck YES!!!!!!! Oh yea, and I'm off for 4 days yay...
On sunday morning, you should have changed since yesterday without any warning... i thought I knew you WOAO! Isn't that how the No Doubt song goes??! Anyways, I'm about to head over to good ole Cody's for some Sunday Doubling, can't wait. Josh is still preparing (That means he's taking a big fat dump... doing number 2 at Cody's sucks, and it's almost impossible not to on a double, especially when you have to close.
So, after a pretty emotionally draining shift last night, I decided to at least stop by Georgies for a shot... there I found Mr. Scotty, so of course we had another. Then finally, on my way out, I ran into T.O.N.Y., and he ended up hanging out, and watching Hard Candy with me, so all ended well.
Grrr, I could have slept for a few more hours.
P.s.: I know the times are still fucked up, especially on this one... I posted it this morning, but just got off and noticed that we had a little glitch in the system, so yea... just posting, no one worry... lol, as if anyone really gives a shit :-)
Argh, what a terrible day. I woke up, and found out first thing that no new job for Patrick... so fucking bummed. This job search thing is sucking the life right out of me. My main problem is that I'm way too honest I think... grrr, so I said fuck it and made the journal public.... after all I don't really have any potential employers to worry about. Sooo, I got out the bong, bought a bottle of Captain, and I'll be close to both for the rest of the day. I'm so glad I'm not working today... I'd be a total asshole!
Oh thank god for Cassy, if I wasn't with her when I found out, I think I really would have lost my shit. I met her at Best Buy to help her electronics shopping. It kinda turned into me watching her, and her listening to me bitch about not getting the job. Grrr, then she gave me her iPod, for me to enhance with some music.... that really shot my xmas idea for her so I'll have to rethink that.
Here is a little vid of us at Best Buy, and her mountain of stuff... oh yea, and my 3 CDs I bought with the gift card Lisa gave me... thanx again Lisa
For the record... I bought Bloc Party - Intimacy, Jamiroquai - High Times, and Fall Out Boy - Folie Deux. Kinda took a chance on that last one, but their album design was too cool to pass up. The song names r all too brilliant, and they are all written mirrored.
Oh man, work was... interesting today. I was so fucking hung over lol, but so was everyone else so it was great!!! Oh yea, and Emilia and I got pretty hot and heavy today (that means we almost killed each other). She is an evil fucking bitch man, I'm totally convinced that Sean is drugged lol. Hehe, oh yea, and I finally uploaded the pics from the party last night. Hehe, and I stumbled across this bad ass video. I don't really remember making it, but for how shwasted I was, I don't think I really seemed like that... judging from the amount of slurring, hehe, not what i was doing haha!!!
Poor little Danielle really takes a beating. LOL, oh yea, and Josh is super waster.... at the end I get to feel up Timmy... thanx Lisa!!!
Yuck, I should be finishing up getting ready for work, but for some reason I felt that it would be more important to blog a little. So Last night was the X-mas party, and it was such a fucking blast. It's probably my favorite work related day of the year :-) It was just super nice hanging out with these people and bond a little... Argh, next thing you know Josh is in my room at noon, making sure I'm up for my interview. I'm so lucky that man is my roomie, or I probably wouldn't have been ready... how did the interview go? thanx for asking (myself)... i donno... I left feeling unsure if I still had the job. The first interview went so well, I might have gone into this with a little too much confidence. I also should have been more responsible, gotten more sleep and drank less last night. But what's done is done, hopefully I'll hear back from Miss Regina with some positive news. John def wasn't quite as talkative during the interview... but I think that might be better for my training process. Ahh, wish myself luck.
Uuuh, I just have too much postable material these days lol. I still need to upload them damn x-mas party pictures :-) Oh yea, and then there is the bashing of the managers lol. Maybe that'll be a project for tomorrow.... grrr, i know i shouldn't pick up tomorrow, but I really don't want to work hehe.
Alright, time to put on my pants, and begin my work day. Aaaah, i'm so happy that this post is pretty private. I always think that I'm not deep enough on here, but fuck it, this is my journal, no one elses and I get to write about whatever the fuck i want.
Oh man, it seriously took me forever to post this shiz... ufff, so recap of today. I woke up and decided that I was going to film my sunday morning shift lol. It got so fucking long though, so I decided to just post a video here and there at a time. Here are Josh and I getting ready for work... We're a little hung over, and not all awake yet, so YES, I'm aware that my talking of technically vs. technologically makes no sense lol.
Soooo, I got off work and got so much Christmas shopping done. So a few lucky bitches are guaranteed to get a lil something this year. Ugh, I forgot wrapping paper... hopefully Josh will help me out in that department.
Mmmmh, oh yea, so I get home and Michael (yes, that Michael) calls, and he's still jobless, camping some where in Orlando... I donno what happened, but next thing you know we're having phone sex and well... yea, hehe. Was a good stress relief. Then I made plans with Bryan to watch WallE (thanx Lorell), but he never showed or called. I blame his no-show on our intense conversation about his drug-use. Poor kid, I hope he's alright... I never know when he's joking or serious.
Oh man WallE was so fucking cute. Def best animated flick ever!!!! Very visually stimulating. I call for a sequel!
Ah, so i just got home from work, got naked, thew all my clothing in the washer, sat down on my bed, turned on SNL and 3, 2, 1, FIRE!!! Work has been pretty decent lately. Drama has been to a minimum, and no one is really getting on my nerves these days hehe. Well, except of course the beast they call Emilia.
<---- Scary Child, isn't she?!
Actually lately I've been noticing that she's been trying to crack a smile, ufff, scawwy stuff for sure lol. Uuuh, I think I have a really sexy picture of her, that should give one an idea.
The prospect of leaving Cody's is really weird for me, for some reason. Grrr, I wish I could keep that as my primary, but not an option... Patrick needs benefits and a career... oh pooh! Still, it feels a lot better that soon Cody's might not be a necessity... just in case it gets too bull shitty. Then i could just be like: "Later Broospeees!!! No need for this shit!" Lol, uuuh, that would feel so nice ;-) But then again, wouldn't really be worth leaving that place on a bad note... too much family there!!
Sweet Mr. Jones brought in x-mas gifts for everyone last night (my night off). Every year he gets the boys all the same thing, and does the same for the ladies. This year the guys got the coolest little pocket knives and the girls got umm... breast cancer bracelets... I should use my new knife and carve my laptop into my name, umm, i mean my name into my laptop.... or not!
Fuck, that dumb ass brownie i made last night is gonna be around for the rest of the week to haunt me, I know it. I'm not gonna want to toss it, and I'll just keep eating it, until it's all gone.
Oh man, I was just snooping around on some old videos and posts made by Munoz and I found this video. This is of Maureen's birthday, I was waiting on her and we all sang happy birthday lol. Was so funny... Every sunday at 4: Maureen came in, sat in my section, ordered a vodka martini, one up, one on rocks, two more lil ice, with lemon twist, then salad, xtra peppers... oh don't put in the order yet, need time to eat my salad... ok Maureen, I love you, no worries... the, 6oz bacon wrapped filet, but leave off bacon, rare, sweet potato with cinnamon butter, and a scoop of mushrooms... Maureen then drank all the vodka, had a bite of the filet, a bite of her potato and then I had to carry her out the door (over time we kinda figured out how many she could have before being shwasted!) anyways, she hasn't been in since February and I fucking miss that lady. I even know where she lives, and although her place is still there, with the car parked in her lot (plus spider webs), doesn't seem like she lives there anymore. Anyways, miss you and hope your out there doing well Maureen!!
Fuck, what a stupid fucking night. It's 7:07a.m. right now, and and I'm smoking a big ole bowl, so hopefully that'll put me back to bed. So lets recap... After a long mother of a friday, inhaling fumes, and tutoring Miss Megan --------------------------------------------------------------->
Then for dinner I gave into my munchos and made the baddest Pasta/Spinach in town, followed by hersheys infused betty crocker brownies (yum, with a glass of milk). Then I grabbed a silver bullet, sat my ass on my bed to watch Ellen's stand up. Next thing I know I wake up at 3 in the morning to blaring infomercials and a wet beer puddle in my bed lol. Ah shit, so Patrick grabs a towel, makes the best of it, passes back out, wakes back up two hours later to a freezy 55 degree breeze caused by an open window we forgot to close after the bleeching, grrr, back to bed, then No kidding, right around 6 Kenny stepped on the remote to the living room CD player, and Josh and I are thrown out of our beds by Cher singing:"DOES HE LOVE ME, I WANNA KNOW... HOW CAN I TELL IF HE LOVES ME SO? IS IT IN HIS EYES...." Aaah, confused, and sleepy I turn it off, then Kenny joined me in bed, and since then we've been rolling around together, keeping each other awake. I said fuck it, now I'm watching the golden girls and having a smoke, maybe I can get a couple more hours in before noon lol. Hehe, Josh just walked by my room, all confused why I'm up so early, hey Josh!!! Sorry, need to turn down the Golden Girls lol.
This year was fucking crazy... this is why I decided to start over, clear my head, and start something new... so here we are :-) So lets remember some of the things that happened this year. I graduated from College, got cut off by the Rents (bummer), found a roomie on Craigslist, made a trip to the crazy-house, crashed Bebop (my Jeep/Soulmate), and discovered the beauty of air-conditioning, as well as low gas milage!
Ah, Puff puff, I just started relaxing. Roomie Josh and I woke up early to bleach the tile floors... you know, cause the family is coming for x-mas and I can't stand lectures how dirty everything always is. As of now I believe that the smell of bleach might be permanent on my hands, well, whatever is left of them anyways lol... fuck, scrubbing with bleach for 2 hours sucks... except for the mild buzz the bleach causes... woozeeylicious GT! The tiles look great, but everything smells like ass. Anyone every hear of a cat that likes bleach? After airing the house, and letting Kenny out of my room, he wouldn't stop rolling around on the bleach floor... creepy fucker. Ah, I filmed that, remind me to share.
Oh man, I'm listening to the Raconteurs right now, thanx Elvis for introducing me, and convincing me that the second record is even better, I finally agree. It's really cool Story-Telling, Old School Rock... Perfect puff puff music. Many Shades of Black has to be my favorite. Mmmmh, I wish customizing shit like this was less complicated. Hate the generic layout, but is always so much fucking effort... sniff sniff, Patrick Patrick, get yourself toge... lol, gulp, sniff slobber! Anways, I love Shades of Black... Ah the horns are so fucking cool!
Ah, the roomie just drove by the window... alone no longer lol. I should use this opportunity to explore the video upload feature!
There you have it man... Josh is always so fucking mean to Kenny lol. After that he threw a sock at Kenny, I left that out, because I didn't want any animal cruelty charges.
Oh fuck, and then I should also try to post a video that my friend posted. Here Amanda and I were in Orlando with Daina... I have no idea when we made it, and I remember nothing in it... very weird. But here it is... maybe that was someone who looked like me, hired by Daina and Munoz to confuse me... yup, that must be it. I will take you down with a roll of napkins
Hehe, makes me smile... fuck, I'm pretty fucking gay though lol.
